First post after SPM

Halo ppl! Wow it has been so long since I last updated my blog.well I kno I'm slow but,SPM is finally over.11yrs of hard work justified in 1 exam. =_=

Post-SPM life was fun at first,before everyone went to KL.Everyday just go out and play and watch movie and sleep late late XD But,but,but,after everyone went to KL,things started to get more and more boring.Everyday just wake up and play computer game and sleep.ARGH!March come faster pls!! T_T

Had a dinner with Reuben,Rachel,Teoh,Gideon,Sin Rei,Sarah and Guatham last night.Had a lot of fun and laughter :D Gonna miss you Reuben,you this lc chindian XD

Alright,that's all?haha really very lazy to update.and I have this difficulty that I very hard to express my thoughts in words,especially English.. haha cheers :D

SPM fever

I should have focused on Sejarah and try my very best to memorize every word instead of sitting in front of computer when SPM is just what,8 days away?But duh,just trying to relax myself la.

The post-SPM life has been in my mind like since forever and I really can't wait for it to come true.The waking up without worrying what to study and how much to study today is the sweetest part.And the playing everyday is just simply exciting.Well just 1 more month,and the life I've been yearning for will come true!And the most important part is my life sticking to Malaysia education system would be put to an end if I don't have to study Form6 next year,HOPEFULLY.pls pls =.=

To all Form5 students,all the best for SPM. (:

It get harder each day.

C'est la vie?

C'est la vie..

bla.

Need endorphin.

Catalyst to something,inhibitor to something.

Random,again.

I've been watching House season 5 a lot lately,again.And I've been thinking a lot lately,again,which most ppl would acknowledge it as : aiya u think too much and stuff.

When do you get confused over which step is the best step?When do you get sick of deciding which word to say or which reaction to give so that you wont offend other ppl?When do you get tired to try to put your life back to a normal route and keep moving instead of just turning around a circle about a fixed point?When do you get sick of asking when you feel like jus answering?

I guess its when you'd wake up at the middle of the night and wondering how tomorrow could be and who you're gonna be.And then u throw yourself back into sleep to avoid the endless hole in your heart before it haunt you and make your night sleepless.

Its a random post,and well,I think too much.

发现

以为自己很坚强，

其实自己才是最脆弱的那一个。





谢谢你，让我明白我的懦弱。

voice,sound.

Im so into Leigh Nash song now.

truly soothing voice,amazing song.

the whole Blue On Blue album is jus so nice.

And i wished for affection
And i wished for calm.

Nervous in the light of dawn
Leigh Nash

Not As We-Alanis Morissette

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure, unconvincing
this faint and shaky hour

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I’m barely making sense
For now I’m faking it
‘Til I’m pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as “I”
And not as “we”

Gun-shy and quivering
Timid without a hint
Feign brave with steel intent
Little and hardly here

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
With not much making sense
Just yet I’m faking it
’til I’m pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as “I”
And not as “we”

Eyes wet,
Toward wide open frayed
If God is taking bias,
I pray he wants to lose

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I’m barely making sense
Just yet I’m faking it
‘Til I’m pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as “I”
And not as “we”



guess im stupid.
i hate myself.
im drowning,again.
忽冷忽热

sunday

Its been long since i last post a proper n word-riching post.n im not gonna do it nw oso.mayb jus a bit longer post den those earlier.Some big things happened lately.

Sis went to Sarawak to further her study,taking medical course.She went dey on last Friday by Air Asia-1hour30minutes-fly(tho i don think its det on-time,anything can happen in Msia,u kno).And im missing her,lot.She is oways a great sis to me,who kno me e most,who tok wif me e most in e family,who oways dey wif me when im in trouble.And i love her lot,so do her.hope she is doing well dey,n can adapt to e new environment well.

Michael Jackson,King of Pop of all time passed away.He may be a freak,a weird ppl,but he is oways one of e greatest singer & dancer.He is e first black-man who were able to get in to e mainstream of music industry,and first black-man who made e MV of black ppl to be able to show on channel MTV.I love his music,his dancing.No ppl can forget his music.n his moonwalk,e way he stand on his toes,e way he lean his body forward.Its a great loss,to e world,n to everyone who love his music.Hail to Michael Jackson.


Hmm im reali addicted on House M.D n am watching season four of it now wif e rate of at least 3episodes a day.N tell me pls where can i find e dvd of Before Sunset & Before Sunrise.am desperate for it.

Ow ow n i kena PLKN,wad the hell..Hate the word Tahniah on e replied msg,n e Selamat Maju Jaya on e website.damn unlucky.

Got to go for dinner.byebye.

Music playing: Patience-Guns N' Roses

im only human.

still not fine,still fragile,as always.

qwerty.

hot n cold.

im tired.

more music pls.

blog next time.

music playing:
Will You Be There- Michael Jackson

not fine,n fragile.

friday night

living in pain.

gudnite.

C'est la vie

消逝了，
远走了。

两句话，
一种念头，
一种心情。

gone.

其实很累。

Mid-year

Exam finally over,i think dets wad every Form5-ers saying now.But it don't seem so exiciting n relaxing when thinking of det dey is still 4weeks of trial exam n 4 weeks of SPM waiting ahead.gosh.

But But But,dey is at least 2 weeks of holidays to let everyone wake up late n doing nothing d whole day.ow man don mention me e stupid Ulangkaji jadual det sch give.

Going for Undang Test during hols,n starting on car driving lesson during hols as well.cant wait to drive.cant wait for e feeling of driving-on-road wif music-filling-the-car n no one will nag u for det.

Okay bye.


你啊，
还自己一片追逐的草原，
给自己一段洁白的心事吧。
太烦忧，太纷扰，
不如放逐于静默间，
去学会，
放开..

电影

突然很想打些什么字。

在听着 Sixpence None The Richer 的歌。

在想着不断在我脑中重复的一部电视剧的台词：“我就快死了，妈。”
（忘了那部戏的名字）

语调很平淡，我想我听得见那其中藏着的太多无奈，
还有很深的解放的感觉。

在想着一些电影。 Seven Pound 和 Revolutionary Road 里
脆弱得叫人软弱的生命
沉重得叫人窒息的生命。

The Accuracy of Death 和 Pursuit of Happiness 里
豁达的生命观
千年一次的太阳
让人看见美好。

很喜欢很喜欢电影。
留恋电影中轻缓留过的情感，
及似真似假的时光。

却只看过太少太少的电影。
错过了太多，所以会想要寻回。
有很多很多很多想看的电影。
希望能找到它们的DVD。

现在最想看
Before Sunset
Before Sunrise
Departure （殉葬师）
Broken Embraces

好想去康成影展。

six.

Waking up n doing nothing.

Sejarah waiting ahead.argh.

Morning filled wif voices & songs of Sixpence None The Richer.

All e best to everyone who sitting for mid-year exam. =)

去吧

那道界限以后的景象，只能去幻想，却不能拥有。
所以黑夜的幽暗与梦的真实感
能将灵魂完美豢养。

也许你说得对，
不该去期待的。
也许另一个你说得对，
不该太过看重与执著。
可是，说时容易，做时难。

所以啊，
请给我逃往的旅程。
途中的驿站，是已在心中矗立的向往。
也许，逃往的旅程，
就是驿站。

路口

也许有天我拥有满天太阳
却一样在幽暗的夜里醒来


陈升
《路口》

short update.

Halo ppl.hmm dis week quite busy.filled wif alot of things n activity n oso,tuition =.=

N went to hui mei's bday party last Saturday.hmm it was quite nice.sry for no picture to post up,cos i don hav a camera. =X n im too lazy to take photo from other ppl blog den post up here =.=

N i finally finish undang class d,after months of planning to take it.haha.

Hav been woke up on 6/6.30 a.m continuously for 2 weeks.ow man im exhausted. =.=

N i haven start study for mid-year exam.i think im gonna c my name on e last page last column of ranking paper,again.

Ow man im so in love wif Iron & Wine a.k.a Samuel Beam.his song is jus simply too nice.okay i kno im slow,again. =.=


i miss u,alot.

meaningless post.

I am a fool.

feeling damn bad.

gudnite ppl.