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First post after SPM

2010-01-26T23:41:00.001-08:00

Halo ppl! Wow it has been so long since I last updated my blog.well I kno I'm slow but,SPM is finally over.11yrs of hard work justified in 1 exam. =_=

Post-SPM life was fun at first,before everyone went to KL.Everyday just go out and play and watch movie and sleep late late XD But,but,but,after everyone went to KL,things started to get more and more boring.Everyday just wake up and play computer game and sleep.ARGH!March come faster pls!! T_T

Had a dinner with Reuben,Rachel,Teoh,Gideon,Sin Rei,Sarah and Guatham last night.Had a lot of fun and laughter :D Gonna miss you Reuben,you this lc chindian XD

Alright,that's all?haha really very lazy to update.and I have this difficulty that I very hard to express my thoughts in words,especially English.. haha cheers :D

SPM fever

2009-11-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

I should have focused on Sejarah and try my very best to memorize every word instead of sitting in front of computer when SPM is just what,8 days away?But duh,just trying to relax myself la.

The post-SPM life has been in my mind like since forever and I really can't wait for it to come true.The waking up without worrying what to study and how much to study today is the sweetest part.And the playing everyday is just simply exciting.Well just 1 more month,and the life I've been yearning for will come true!And the most important part is my life sticking to Malaysia education system would be put to an end if I don't have to study Form6 next year,HOPEFULLY.pls pls =.=

To all Form5 students,all the best for SPM. (:

2009-10-26T06:22:00.000-07:00

It get harder each day.

C'est la vie?

C'est la vie..

bla.

2009-09-26T21:53:00.000-07:00

Need endorphin.

Catalyst to something,inhibitor to something.

Random,again.

2009-09-23T01:46:00.000-07:00

I've been watching House season 5 a lot lately,again.And I've been thinking a lot lately,again,which most ppl would acknowledge it as : aiya u think too much and stuff.

When do you get confused over which step is the best step?When do you get sick of deciding which word to say or which reaction to give so that you wont offend other ppl?When do you get tired to try to put your life back to a normal route and keep moving instead of just turning around a circle about a fixed point?When do you get sick of asking when you feel like jus answering?

I guess its when you'd wake up at the middle of the night and wondering how tomorrow could be and who you're gonna be.And then u throw yourself back into sleep to avoid the endless hole in your heart before it haunt you and make your night sleepless.

Its a random post,and well,I think too much.

发现

2009-09-12T23:28:00.000-07:00

以为自己很坚强，

其实自己才是最脆弱的那一个。

谢谢你，让我明白我的懦弱。

voice,sound.

2009-07-22T03:00:00.001-07:00

Im so into Leigh Nash song now.

truly soothing voice,amazing song.

the whole Blue On Blue album is jus so nice.

And i wished for affection
And i wished for calm.

Nervous in the light of dawn
Leigh Nash

2009-07-10T19:39:00.000-07:00

Not As We-Alanis Morissette

Reborn and shivering
Spat out on new terrain
Unsure, unconvincing
this faint and shaky hour

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I’m barely making sense
For now I’m faking it
‘Til I’m pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as “I”
And not as “we”

Gun-shy and quivering
Timid without a hint
Feign brave with steel intent
Little and hardly here

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
With not much making sense
Just yet I’m faking it
’til I’m pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as “I”
And not as “we”

Eyes wet,
Toward wide open frayed
If God is taking bias,
I pray he wants to lose

Day one, day one
Start over again
Step one, step one
I’m barely making sense
Just yet I’m faking it
‘Til I’m pseudo-making it
From scratch, begin again
But this time I as “I”
And not as “we”

guess im stupid.
i hate myself.
im drowning,again.
忽冷忽热

sunday

2009-07-05T04:31:00.001-07:00

Its been long since i last post a proper n word-riching post.n im not gonna do it nw oso.mayb jus a bit longer post den those earlier.Some big things happened lately.

Sis went to Sarawak to further her study,taking medical course.She went dey on last Friday by Air Asia-1hour30minutes-fly(tho i don think its det on-time,anything can happen in Msia,u kno).And im missing her,lot.She is oways a great sis to me,who kno me e most,who tok wif me e most in e family,who oways dey wif me when im in trouble.And i love her lot,so do her.hope she is doing well dey,n can adapt to e new environment well.

Michael Jackson,King of Pop of all time passed away.He may be a freak,a weird ppl,but he is oways one of e greatest singer & dancer.He is e first black-man who were able to get in to e mainstream of music industry,and first black-man who made e MV of black ppl to be able to show on channel MTV.I love his music,his dancing.No ppl can forget his music.n his moonwalk,e way he stand on his toes,e way he lean his body forward.Its a great loss,to e world,n to everyone who love his music.Hail to Michael Jackson.

Hmm im reali addicted on House M.D n am watching season four of it now wif e rate of at least 3episodes a day.N tell me pls where can i find e dvd of Before Sunset & Before Sunrise.am desperate for it.

Ow ow n i kena PLKN,wad the hell..Hate the word Tahniah on e replied msg,n e Selamat Maju Jaya on e website.damn unlucky.

Got to go for dinner.byebye.

Music playing: Patience-Guns N' Roses

im only human.

still not fine,still fragile,as always.

qwerty.

2009-07-03T05:46:00.000-07:00

hot n cold.

im tired.

more music pls.

blog next time.

music playing:
Will You Be There- Michael Jackson

not fine,n fragile.

friday night

2009-06-19T06:02:00.000-07:00

living in pain.

gudnite.

2009-06-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

C'est la vie

消逝了，
远走了。

两句话，
一种念头，
一种心情。

gone.

2009-06-01T19:27:00.000-07:00

其实很累。

Mid-year

2009-05-29T05:42:00.000-07:00

Exam finally over,i think dets wad every Form5-ers saying now.But it don't seem so exiciting n relaxing when thinking of det dey is still 4weeks of trial exam n 4 weeks of SPM waiting ahead.gosh.

But But But,dey is at least 2 weeks of holidays to let everyone wake up late n doing nothing d whole day.ow man don mention me e stupid Ulangkaji jadual det sch give.

Going for Undang Test during hols,n starting on car driving lesson during hols as well.cant wait to drive.cant wait for e feeling of driving-on-road wif music-filling-the-car n no one will nag u for det.

Okay bye.

你啊，
还自己一片追逐的草原，
给自己一段洁白的心事吧。
太烦忧，太纷扰，
不如放逐于静默间，
去学会，
放开..

电影

2009-05-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

突然很想打些什么字。

在听着 Sixpence None The Richer 的歌。

在想着不断在我脑中重复的一部电视剧的台词：“我就快死了，妈。”
（忘了那部戏的名字）

语调很平淡，我想我听得见那其中藏着的太多无奈，
还有很深的解放的感觉。

在想着一些电影。 Seven Pound 和 Revolutionary Road 里
脆弱得叫人软弱的生命
沉重得叫人窒息的生命。

The Accuracy of Death 和 Pursuit of Happiness 里
豁达的生命观
千年一次的太阳
让人看见美好。

很喜欢很喜欢电影。
留恋电影中轻缓留过的情感，
及似真似假的时光。

却只看过太少太少的电影。
错过了太多，所以会想要寻回。
有很多很多很多想看的电影。
希望能找到它们的DVD。

现在最想看
Before Sunset
Before Sunrise
Departure （殉葬师）
Broken Embraces

好想去康成影展。

six.

2009-05-16T19:00:00.000-07:00

Waking up n doing nothing.

Sejarah waiting ahead.argh.

Morning filled wif voices & songs of Sixpence None The Richer.

All e best to everyone who sitting for mid-year exam. =)

去吧

2009-05-02T18:15:00.000-07:00

那道界限以后的景象，只能去幻想，却不能拥有。
所以黑夜的幽暗与梦的真实感
能将灵魂完美豢养。

也许你说得对，
不该去期待的。
也许另一个你说得对，
不该太过看重与执著。
可是，说时容易，做时难。

所以啊，
请给我逃往的旅程。
途中的驿站，是已在心中矗立的向往。
也许，逃往的旅程，
就是驿站。

路口

2009-05-01T20:20:00.000-07:00

也许有天我拥有满天太阳
却一样在幽暗的夜里醒来

陈升
《路口》

short update.

2009-04-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

Halo ppl.hmm dis week quite busy.filled wif alot of things n activity n oso,tuition =.=

N went to hui mei's bday party last Saturday.hmm it was quite nice.sry for no picture to post up,cos i don hav a camera. =X n im too lazy to take photo from other ppl blog den post up here =.=

N i finally finish undang class d,after months of planning to take it.haha.

Hav been woke up on 6/6.30 a.m continuously for 2 weeks.ow man im exhausted. =.=

N i haven start study for mid-year exam.i think im gonna c my name on e last page last column of ranking paper,again.

Ow man im so in love wif Iron & Wine a.k.a Samuel Beam.his song is jus simply too nice.okay i kno im slow,again. =.=

i miss u,alot.

meaningless post.

2009-04-21T05:40:00.000-07:00

I am a fool.

feeling damn bad.

gudnite ppl.

Update

2009-04-11T19:28:00.000-07:00

Halo gud morning ppl.so long i nvr post abt wad had happened.okay jus a short review of wad had happened?

1.Debate thing finally over.lose to Foon Yew High Sch Team B in e first round haha.(we actually went to sushi king to celebrate after det =.=)
2.Theif broke in my house.wtfwtfwtf.lost my money n im poor nw.dey broke in by smashing a hole on e ceiling of my bedroom.wtfwtfwtf.i still gt e hole pic in my phone.wtfwtfwtf.
3.Ranking of first test is finally out.n haha no surprise i get number last in my class. =.=
4.Went to Leadership Challenge(or competition?i forgot) at Sunway College ystd.plyed some game n sweating damn lot.n we spent abt 1hour plus on e way to college n e way bac to sch.=.=
5.Finally get to chg to friday chemistry class.thx thx thx sis. =D
6.Me n my sis r so addicted to House now.(okay i kno we r slow) bt damn nice la dis show.n seriously Hugh Laurie quite handsome le.haha.

So things coming up?
1.Sis bday on Monday!!
2.Hui mei's bday party on Saturday.
3.Bm bentang thingy.n me n jeremie hav to sing in front e whole class.wtfwtfwtf.
4.Mid year exam.ow man i dowan to get number last in class again pls pls pls pls. =.=
5.Assignment of det leadership challenge thingy bt i think we guys(me,darren,teoh,pikyang) r not going to do it.hahaha.c first la.

So dets all.byebye.

i miss u,everyday.

OK 与不OK

2009-04-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

最近很不ok。
有太多不敢触碰的情绪与思恋，
但夜深人静时还是特别容易想起，
最近又生病，更加容易沉沦在那些
拼了命逃避的情绪与思恋中。

所以不断的在找事情做，
希望能填补那巨大的失落与伤悲。（我知道那是虚无的）
又不断的运动，以流汗暂时忘记生命中的倦怠。
多希望跑着跑着就忘了，就放开了
可是一切结束后，还是觉得如此沉重。

我希望我能ok,
真的好累。

别对我冷淡，好吗？ =X

张震岳
《OK》
生命之中有多少经历
值得细细回忆
尤其是感情那些刻骨铭心的回忆
好多年都不曾忘记
我们都在寻找真爱
花钱也不能买
但是你问我什么是爱
它没有正确答案
只能凭感觉
在人海里寻找所谓的爱
有人随便玩玩
有人拼了老命在玩
有人一辈子没有伴
过著东奔西跑的日子
来到不熟悉的城市特别容易孤寂
想著挥之不去的问题
尤其面对自己总是没有头绪
感情和个人的平衡点常常失去重心
放手上风一吹就会掉下去
有时却想放弃
摇摇欲坠其实最自私是自己
我可不想装的很可悲
好让人家来给我安慰
这一段时间我很ok
顶多如有时候早早睡
当然还是有一些小小的寂寞在身边
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok
走一步算一步
寻寻觅觅当你遇到一个喜欢的人
却不想在一起
也许只想一夜情而已
放了真感情却害怕自由会失去
这世界上只有两种人
男人和女人
每天上演同样的剧情
谁又爱上谁谁又背叛谁谁又伤了谁
乐此不疲的表演好累
但是没有人能够脱离再翻离
谁可以跨越出去
结果因人而异
有的信守终生有的继续等
有的干脆剃度
永远不再过问
这红尘滚滚心中是否沸腾
还有多少时间值得继续等
曲终人散走在陌生的街上
剩我一个人唱
我可不想装的很可悲
好让人家来给我安慰
这一段时间我很ok
顶多如有时候早早睡
当然还是有一些小小的寂寞在身边
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok
爱情面貌我是不了解
却把自己搞的很狼狈
有一段时间我不ok
把灵魂关在黑暗里面
当然还是有一些小小的痛苦在身边
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok
寂寞很ok 一个人ok 习惯就ok

雨

2009-04-01T06:44:00.000-07:00

当思恋与悲伤相汇成河，

该怎么让每一个日与夜平静渡过？

对不起啊，真的。

或许说出去一会就再也没回过头
心的闷和孤独脚还继续走
《一种念头》
Joanna

=X

2009-03-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

feeling damn freaking bad now.

feel lyk smash my com,or anything around me.

bad day.

里面下着雨

2009-03-25T02:32:00.000-07:00

不知道的生活，
已经如此摇摇欲坠。

不敢面对的情绪，
却在刻意的掩埋中持续发酵。

所以，
关上门就哭泣吧，
合上眼就睡去吧。

明天不过就是，
角落的明天。

可是真的
好想没有明天只有夜晚。

试著体会试著忍住眼泪

还是躲不开应该有的情绪
张震岳&蔡健雅
《思恋是一种病》

音乐与梦

2009-03-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

Have you ever---Westlife

Yes I have.And im having.

给我夜晚，音乐，与
梦。
让逃往进行，让倦怠休息。

手掌留住了风，
握不住一粒沙。
《手的预言》
陈绮贞

音乐

2009-03-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

很累。

深沉的。

想来一次出走，从生活中。

想给自己一个逃往，从生命中。

张震岳的歌真的很好听，陈绮贞的歌也是。

Bad post.

2009-03-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

Halo.never update blog for quite a long time ady. =.=

Exam came,exam passed.And as usual i did last minute work,which i ended up to slp abt 3-4 hours per day only.But,but,but,its over now.But,but,but i still can't relax cos of sth else det coming.Btw,do damn bad in dis test.But,but,but,don kno la,don care. =(

So i went to watched my sch basketball team friendly match wif SAB on last saturday.nice match,nice ply,nice score.den went to tuition wif Edy n Jordan.was extremely tired n slp off in tuition.

Nth much to post.my blog is and always dull n boring.im bad in all these thinking bac wad happened,figuring,typing,n posting. lol sry bout det.

feeling damn bad. =X

想说。

2009-02-23T02:37:00.000-08:00

有很多很多话想说。

可是又有谁愿意聆听。

又有谁能告诉我，

该如何平静的渡过这一切。

总是要学着遗忘，学着疗伤
总要跌跌撞撞，才找到答案
《公路》
张震岳

question mark.

2009-02-22T06:20:00.000-08:00

Gt nth to do so come and post an random post. =.=

Hmm was quite tired dis week.seriously omost all week oso omost e same,keep stay bac after sch for sport,tuition,outing n alot other things.Ow n i went Hari Sukan on yesterday,last year in sch d so feel lyk go watch.Hmm its quite nice.

Ow n En Rosland has been sacked by Omega,En Rahman as well.Den e teacher who takeover En Rosland place is En Radzi,n i don reali lyk e way he teach.Starting 5minutes of the lesson i feel lyk slping ady.Will try to find Rosland tuition class or find a new teacher.argh =X

Ow man first test coming,i haven read anything.gonna do reali bad in first test. =X

Quite alot bad things happened.im tired.

最近迷上了张震岳和陈升的歌,
歌词总在敲击着我的心深处，
很感触。

游走在梦的尽头，也常常不时回首
人与人擦身交错，谁停留谁又远走
《回到过去》
张震岳&林芯仪

我好想你。

苏打绿

2009-02-18T03:39:00.000-08:00

我们都必须成长，

都必须明白，太多事情并不是想象中的美好。

太多事情，能让人在夜里散落一地的落寞与心伤。

最近常在半夜沉睡中惊醒，然后随之而来的是很深的失落，
与长长一夜的惆怅。

很累很累。

然后，想说的是，

Happy Birthday Hui Zhi! =D

这段日子是否，沉睡中忽然哭醒过来。
太多意外，会让人害怕看未来。
苏打绿，《是我的海》

tiltled.

2009-02-14T07:01:00.000-08:00

今天情人节。还有一个小时就过去了。

刚刚重看了如果。爱

感触很深，很深。

我有太多东西不想失去。我有太多东西失去。

那逝去的时光，人与事，让我半夜惊醒时会觉得好感慨。

而我没有意识到的是，我在笑着时会有想哭的冲动。

很累很累。

特别在午夜醒来更是会感慨
张学友，《如果。爱》

纪事

2009-02-11T04:18:00.000-08:00

发生了好多事。
我的心很痛。我的泪在流。
我从来没想过我会又一次被逼去适应这种我曾经很熟悉的感受。
那时候的时光很美好，是我所怀恋的。
现在的感觉很熟悉，是我所惧怕的。
我该如何去赶走，每个时刻里的哀愁，
我该如何去欢笑，当心里的疲惫在作祟，
我该如何去安睡，当哀愁如潮水般涨浮。

我以为那些日久堆叠的疲惫与失落已成为我生命中的过往，
我却在这时间点上重拾这一切，和很多新的低沉纪事。
我朝这一切呐喊，却得到可怕的沉默。
我明白，我是一个烂人。没有资格也不配拥有这一切。
昨日的绮丽，明日的灿烂，不过是一种梦想。

我会用笑容去装饰明天的脸庞。
但请忽视我不经意流露的伤悲。

byebye.

untitled 2

2009-02-09T06:00:00.000-08:00

Hmm quite a few days din update ady.Okay so im here to announce im uncle ady!!haha.my sister-in-law gave birth on e past Friday n e baby name is Lim Hong En.too bad i don hav picture in my computer now,but blive me,he is jus simply too cuteeeee. =D

Den today went out wif Joe n Hockie.watched Changeling.a v v v nice movie.go watch it or u will regret.One of e best movie i hav watched so far.

有太多的不明白，太多的来不及与错过。
然后等一切沉淀后，就变成了过重的无奈和，
那在夜里，总让人心慌的失落。
最后我明白，我真的什么都不是。
我想拥抱的生命不是我的明天。
而我的明天又在哪里？

昙花在夜里绽放静静地像在诉说
　　在夜里忽然想起了什么
　　当我们必需遗忘习惯於宿命过往
　　生命就不再是恍忽年少
陈升，《路口》。

random post.

2009-02-04T04:45:00.001-08:00

Hmm dis 2day kinda busy.stay bac after sch for pusingan kelayakan.First day of it i run,second day i din.lol den second day i jus sit dey only n watch dey run den get attendance ady.

Last saturday is Johnathon bday party.hmm its nice.n the show house even nicer.lol.ply game n ply water on his bday party.n uh nice bday present John get ah.hahaha.

2mr got tuition at Omega.hope get to ply basketball before det.hope will feel betta 2mr ba.

byebye n gudnite.

When i turn out all the lights,even the night,
it only reminds me of you.
MYMP,Only reminds me of you.

untitled

2009-01-31T23:08:00.000-08:00

我真的不明白。

对不起。 =X

Did i disappoint u or let u down,
Should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
-James Blunt,Goodbye My Lover

MUSIC

2009-01-30T08:39:00.000-08:00

-Pat Benatar
-MYMP
-Chicago
-The Carpenters
-Bee Gees
-Bette Midler
-Wham
-James Blunt
-Sixpence None The Richer
-苏打绿

I nid all this oldie song(tho some r not) as im freaking ____ now. =X

Cut my feelings to the bone - Pet Benatar,We belong

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-29T05:39:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE =)

Hmm so i jus start dis post wif happy chinese new year to everyone?

Well i came bac from Muar on tuesday nite.den det nite my bro n sister-in-law bring me to tepian tebrau for dinner,nasi beriani was nice.n u kno wad,im gonna b uncle in 2weeks time.ahaha =D my sister-in-law is going to giv birth on next week or next next week. =)

So hmm did nth much during CNY.ow yea i haven touch my homework as well.den go CS today wif fren.watched Bride Wars.not bad movie.

uh i gt alot movie wan to watch in list.

1.Seven Pounds
2.Valkyrie
3.The curious case of Benjamin Button
4.Changeling
5.Slumdog Millionare

so hmm i'll stop here.byebye.

am feeling extremely down. =X

你在那里？

2009-01-20T02:40:00.000-08:00

开始又觉得悲伤。

我想每一个人都该有个过渡期。去放开怀抱，原谅并接受自己。

只是，没人告诉我过渡期有多久？

我不知道该如何去妥协。

要新年了。有点小期待。至少新年的夜晚不会有那些心事在心底泛滥。

=)

YEA.

2009-01-18T01:19:00.000-08:00

Its been 2weeks after sch reopened.hmm dis year so far not bad seh.Thx God. =)

I stay bac after sch tues-saturday.Basketball,movie,tuition,all come together,though its tiring,bt im enjoy it.love those nice moment.

Ow n Australia is v v v nice.thx yae gudddie =D.

Bt stay bac so many days,i v poor ady =(.Only left a single lonely RM5 note in my wallet. =(

Chinese new year coming.hmm hope everyone hav fun.n enjoy.

Off to homework now.byebye. =)

sch reopen,rather late post.

2009-01-12T04:26:00.000-08:00

Argh.so long i nvr update blog ady.

Sch reopened.damn boring la,everyday homework homework.HOMEWORK IS KILLING ME. =(

Den alot tuition summore.TUITION IS KILLING ME. =( ow but luckily joe join bm tuition. n Rosland is indeed a gud teacher.en en.

nth much to say.im stupid in finding words n form a article den type it out.

Hmm its a gud year so far despite e homework.

Basketball 2mr.hope i can don stay bac for temenggung practice but i cant. =( jus as if i gt a car license den things will solved so easily.GRR. Australia dream come true! thx guddie.lol. =)

I say love,it is a flower,n ur the only seeds. -Betta Midler,The Rose.

没啊.

2009-01-01T07:15:00.000-08:00

又有谁知道你背后的故事？

只有一些睥睨低视的不屑，

和一些不肯谅解的回绝。

我是烂人。

How i wish i could surrender my soul. Tears and Rain-James Blunt

2008-2009

2008-12-30T08:24:00.000-08:00

我开始写这篇entries的时候已经12.45a.m 了。还有一天，2008年就过去了。

该怎么说，今年还真是多事之秋啊。发生了很多事，是我远远无法预料到的。一直在寻求自我定义，一直在自我摸索中迷失，也一直在失落中无奈悲伤。

我想，我们都必须学会成长。我有一个朋友在msn的pm上写着： ‘学习妥协是成长必经的过程’。说得很贴切的我觉得，生命从来都不会在你想要起飞时给你对的风，而羽翼的强度也不能堪受风的强度。当一切发生的不是自己所想要的，所渴望的，就会在现实与梦想中形成断层，然后就会觉得很失落。可是没有人能改变生命中发生的事情，所以最后都只能去接受，并妥协。但是笑着接受很重要啊。生命中一定还有许多美好的事物与惊喜的。我如此的相信着。

呃，说得远了。明天过后就是2009年了。只能说，希望2009年不会再像2008年。

我渴望生命的阳光。我想，我是可以期许2009年的吧。

然后，想说的是，谢谢所有的朋友，特别是一些于我很重要的朋友。你们在我心中留下不可磨灭的足迹。

啊然后就，所有朋友一起加油吧。

嗯，还有慧芝，加油啊。深深的祝福你。 =)

嗯啊。

2008-12-30T05:28:00.000-08:00

我是个白痴。

到底在奢望些什么？

从新来过的，美好的时光？

一些美好的关怀？

一段感情？

让梦中的梦想/渴望成真？

他妈的，我就是个白痴。

够了。那不是你现实中的____。

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T08:34:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to everyone =)

Have fun n enjoy ur day =)

Byebye.

cant slp.

2008-12-22T09:54:00.000-08:00

Its 1.54 ady when i start to write dis post n i still don feel lyk slping.So hmm,hw everyone's life going?

Well,reali nth much to say.jus hols is pretty boring.Sch is going to reopen soon.Bt next yr is SPM year,will b stressful i think?

N hmm ystd is a bad day.i completely n clearly kno det i sux.Thx.Ow however,im starting to work on my facebook ady though i registered it on October.Bt the work i meaning is jus add a profile photo,den add ppl,den dets all.lol.

So hmm hope 2mr wont be too bad.ow n im going to get my salary 2mr.joe n kd,lets enjoy our meal 2mr.

gudnite.

movie movie

2008-12-20T05:14:00.001-08:00

Hmm so again,im gonna say,its long since i last update my blog.hmm din reali hav e mood to update?or shud i say cos no ppl will b viewing my blog lol.anything la.

So watched 3 movie recently:

1.The Day The Earth Stood Stil

So hmm The day the earth stood still,seriously,for me,itdon reali nice.A movie without story,a strory without content.The whole movie is trying to spread some messages,or lessons,which is protect our earth,or it will b too late for us to regret when disaster happen.It is a gud theme,seriously,bt too bad it is in Hollywood style,det make me feel lyk dis movie is jus shoot to earn money.Well it is something lyk The Day after Tomorrow,bt for me The day after Tomorrow is no doubt much more betta den The Day the Earth Stood Still.
We can change!

2.Yes Man
Ow men,dis movie is nice.Reali nice.Though it jus a comedy movie,det ppl jus intend to spend RM10 to buy some laughter,bt i must say,it is one of e best comedy movie i watched.N it is more den jus a comedy movie,det reali out of my prediction.Haven watch it?den,watch it NOW!
HEY MAN,SAY YES TO UR LIFE!

3.Ip Man
A story of grand master of Wing Chun style Kung Fu.hmm wad else can i say,its a nice movie.Watch it.lol.
Wing Chun,Ip Man!

Hmm i was lyk toking abt movie only,cos i did nth special in hols except keep watching movie lol.(though watch movie oso nt special la =.=).
So sch is going to reopen ady.next yr sure will b v tiring n stressful.argh.

P.S:And joe ur jus too damn lucky la ROAR!i wan work oso laaaa.

Dets all.byebye n gudnite.

嗯。

2008-12-15T07:13:00.000-08:00

今天心情很不好啊。最近都一直这样。

晚上翻来覆去就是睡不着。真的应该试试安眠药。

心中的那个洞，干，它越来越大。

我的失落，会不会是以后的失望？

突然好想哭。

updated.

2008-12-03T09:17:00.000-08:00

Hmm its been long since i last update my blog(i keep repeating dis sentence,am i? =X).

Ooookayy firstly i finish my first short-term job in e hols,n det i no nid to slp late everynite n wake up early everyday to go work.i can enjoy hugging my bolster n kissing my pillow(okay im jus joking lol),n let e heat of sun burn my _____ (fill in e blank urself.lol).So still don kno weder is dey other short-term job det coming.hope det i gt la,im short of money T.T

N hmm kinda alot of things happened.hope det everything will b fine ba.n oww thx God det i can go for e bbq.though sum ppl say it quite boring,bt hmm for me it still quite okay la.n e bbq fish is nice.n e sky det night is nice.e my mood det night is _______.

如果明天不是你的语言，
就让失语成为往后的，所谓的，
青春纪事。

So gudnite ppl.my bed miss me,so am i.lol.

GOT TITTE

2008-11-26T06:26:00.000-08:00

Woa its been long since i last updated my blog.okay i went KL from 20-23 wif ding.Went dey to watch SMM dota tournament.sad,Ks lose,due to sum fuking(forgive me for e badwords)action of team eVo`XTC which dey against on d loser semi final bracket.dey can act move on to final n eventually to grand final.GRRRR!

Hmm den started to work ystd.okay e work is lyk quite boring n tiring at d same time.when dey is customer,it is tiring,when dey is no customer,its pretty boring.2mr gotta work 12hours,from 12pm-12am.okay its tiring =.=

Ow n hope det i can go for e bbq thingy.nt reali sure though.argh i wan go!

N hmm my result is bad.haiz..

bye.

Yea dets it

2008-11-18T08:17:00.000-08:00

DO u reali enjoy ur life?

DO u reali appreciate wad u hav?

i hope i can slp tonite =X

post.

2008-11-17T09:34:00.000-08:00

1.34 now(when im starting to type dis post) n i still haven slp.Oasis song is accompanying me.OASIS ROCKS!.one of e greatest band ROAR!

Ow man hols life hols life has been dull n boring.everyday slp around 2++am den wake up 1++pm.Lol bt its kinda nice oso la,no nid to worry for homework(though i HARDLY do it when im stil in sch =x),no nid to worry scold by teacher or kena disipline(ey man i hate to sign on disipline book or kad merah),no nid to worry for all e exam thing(ow my sis STPM start 2mr,all e best to her).AND AND AND GAMES NON-STOP.too bad i don hav enuff money to buy too much books n dvds =(

Oh btw,today went CS wif fren.i went CS for more den 5times in dis two weeks d =.= .n we watched Quantum Of Solace(ohhhh finally) n Daniel Craig rox.some say dis series of 007 not nice as James Bond don't flirt wif gal n being humour lyk he usually do n deys been too much revenge n hateness element in dis episode.bt okay seriously for me its stil quite nice(though when comparing it wif all e previous classic 007 film it still not gud).anyway,Daniel Craig ROAR!

okay its getting late n i hav to go on bed ady.gudnite.

Cos all of the stars
are fading away,
just try not to worry,
you'll see dem somedays
Oasis-Stop crying your heart out

i hope dey do,lyk wad the song lyrics say. =X

给我音乐

2008-11-17T05:15:00.000-08:00

我不想，为这一切，去背负如此难受的落寞。

我不想，为这一切，去让我日后回首青春时只有轻轻的叹息，和很多很多跌落的梦。

我不想，为这一切，将我想要的笑容换成呐喊与控诉。

我不是谁，我不是你，我不是他。我没有你有的生活模式，我没有你有的从容，我没有你有的恣意。

我不明白的，也许你不需要去明白（那是我所羡慕的）。

而我的故事，是你也不会想要去关心的。这一切，都只是对自己的独白。

啊所以，给我音乐。或许那是最轻柔的低语。

啊，我无法自弹自唱。我不会弹吉他。他妈的。

海角七号

2008-11-15T00:04:00.000-08:00

刚刚看了《海角七号》（终于啊啊啊）。很好看的一部电影。而我总是在看完电影后有很多很多的感触，然后有很多很多的梦想重新燃起，然后又重新有很多很多的失望。

对于梦想的执著，我一直认为不只是一种口头上的坚定，更多在于去实行，去争取，去战斗。可是在梦想的背后还是会有很多很多的阻力。很感慨的是，生命永远不会在你想要冲刺的地方给你平滑的跑道，不会在你想要飞翔的时候给你对的风，不会在你想要呐喊的时候给你真实的安慰。然后当你不想跑了，跑道却已筑好，当你不想飞了，风却刚起，当你不想呐喊了，却给了你实在的踏实。虽然如此，我想我还是相信梦想的。而我的梦，却在哪个时间点上等候我的期许？

我很幸运，也很不幸运。

嗯，还有，在电影里，爱依然如此美好，如此静好。生命中的感动，或许时刻都在左右，不经意的牵动着心扉，却又是生命里最实在的执著与眷恋。对于电影与人生里的爱，我不知道该如何用文字去描写。只能说，爱是最美好的事。

爱与梦，许如你（我）的天,和地。不会动摇的执著。

没有粗话（如果你相信）

2008-11-13T09:08:00.000-08:00

失望是弦，你的眼神就是破碎的注解。

的妈他。

奈无。

没有题目

2008-11-11T06:10:00.000-08:00

我很难受，真的很难受

该拿什么来填补，心中那个缺口的洞？

又该拿什么来逆流悲伤？

我是个烂人。

原谅我的懦弱。

=)

blah.

2008-11-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

ahhhh so damn happy nw.finally exam is going to over,left physics paper 1 n 3.den everything thing det related to study will come to an end,an END(at least for dis yr laa).okay so e whole exam is v tiring.sth lyk u come bac from sch,bath,den rest a while,den start study lyk crazy,den slp.den wake up at midnite n study.den exam.den e whole process repeat again on 2nd day.lol okay i admit det its my fault laaaa.din study much before exam.blah.don care la..

n hols is coming!gotta do alot of thing in hols if im able to.oh n Barack Obama won!lala e next president of America n hope det he will really make a change.

so dets all.

lets hav fun.in HOLIDAYS. =)

明白了什么？

2008-10-30T02:54:00.000-07:00

这几天又发生了很多事情，然后，疲惫感是肯定会有的。

嗯，我或许对所谓的生命的宽度有那么一点点的了解了..有时，悲伤不是绝对，或许前方的空气很清新，或许阳光很温暖，或许笑容和快乐很恣意。可是，到最后还只是或许，不太可能成为现实的或许，可是，白日梦与渴望的心情是不用钱的。在某种程度上，这些轻盈的梦，在在的填补了我心中的那个缺口，虽然我知道，向往的那一片天不是我的天空的颜色，而希望到最终也没有成真。可是，愿意相信，也许就是一种幸福。

然后想说的是，虽然以希望的颜色来彩绘这一片天空，可是他妈的天空还是一样的挂着深沉的色彩，心情还是一样的低落。到最后，或许我会明白，希望与悲痛是不能等价交换的。

嗯，就是这样，又是一篇低沉的自白。

random

2008-10-16T03:35:00.000-07:00

在夜里，是要掬一把泪的。
意象式的对生命的致敬。

而那未完成的以后，
或许会在更夜的瞳孔里实现。

鞠躬，
在无雨的天界里。

argh.

2008-10-14T20:44:00.000-07:00

okay all these days r damn bad.n depressed as well.n im getting more n more tired to all of dis.

okay so lets runaway.

or

show me e way out of all of dis.

=x

study?!

2008-10-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

woa i so damn long nvr update blog ady..everyday jus online surf web ply game..okay so things to do in list is

1.study
2.force myself to study
3.off e com n go to study
4.persuade myself to study
5.giv up after i fail to do things in 1,2,3,4

seriously i die ady.all ppl lyk study so damn lot ady bt i stil study det few pages only n wif moral project undone n UNTOUCH. argh.

okay im gonna do damn bad in dis final exam. =(

飞，飞？

2008-10-02T05:23:00.000-07:00

为什么，永远都是一样的生活，一样的精神折磨，一样的疲惫。

受够了。

给我一双翅膀，让我飞离这座城。

2008-09-30T03:19:00.000-07:00

Holidays was boring. =( only e time when ply games(DotA!) is fun lol.ystd went CS watch moive wif Joe.Accuracy of Death a.k.a Sweet Rain.Movie is jus too damn nice.n its v touching n meaningful.the shinigami (death god) in e moive,Chiba is a shinigami det hav nvr seen sunny day before.hmm i betta don say here,later u all lost e interest to e moive lol.

Sunny day is not special,but its important.so is death. ---Accuracy of Death

enjoy e moive =)

the happening(???)

2008-09-27T22:23:00.000-07:00

okay so many things happened in dis few days.will jus list out.

1.frog!okay we disect frog.den teacher say for knowledge its okay det we kil e frog n take everything out(organ) from its body!(dosa tau..).too bad i don hav e photo here.can view tan's blog for e photo though he is nt same group wif me.lol.bt all e frog is almost e same la except det tan's group frog is female bt too bad i cant find e male reproductive organ(lol im trying to don use foul language?) of my group male frog.den e heart of frog stil beating act after his body is disect n some of its organ has been cut off.bt my sis told me det act e frog died when e choroform is applied on it.okay hope so.so det it wont suffer so much.

2.julia's bday!its awesome.n owww man julia ur house is jus toooo big.okay dets lotsa food dey.den karaoke time!lol e mv is nt for child man.n haha i keep gay-ing wif gid n he co-operate so much in dis gay-ing thing lol.den we plyed game,water ball n whacko,too bad i don kno hav to bring a shirt so i din ply waterball.den whacko is fun,n wtf y u all ask me to do e pole dance...den ply mafia(julia n jasmine get doctor card bt dey din save anybody lol)n i get detective card bt i din arrest anybody too.=.= for photo can view suanli's blog.gid blog as well.

tooooo bad la i don hav photo.cos i don hav my own camera den i think betta don lend my parent's wan or else dey keep nagging.bla bla bla.

hope u wont slp when read dis photoless blog.

是我的海

2008-09-24T05:09:00.000-07:00

苏打绿《是我的海》

这些日子以来
突然间变成一片空白
这段日子是否
沉睡中忽然哭醒过来
太多意外
没想要勉强我感慨
太多困难
会让人害怕看未来
你知道我不想离开
你知道我有多无奈
如果时间一直走得那么快
我怎么对你依赖
是我的海
阳光的下午慢慢感染
当海不蓝
飞起的梦想都变尘埃

你知道我不想离开
你知道我有多无奈
如果时间一直走得那么快
我怎么对你依赖
你知道我不想离开
你知道我有多无奈
如果时间一直走得那么快
我怎么对你依赖
泪流出来该怎么办
是我的海
寂静的下午默默离开
海也不蓝
转过身不能再宠爱
我多想大声喊
我多不想明白
我只想唱来一些温暖
在我们心里不会腐坏

最近心情很低落。

只是，如果不是沉睡中忽然哭醒过来，
而是阖上眼眼泪就会流下，那悲伤该用怎样的词曲去诠释？

Guitar Guitar!

2008-09-20T00:03:00.001-07:00

ow i reali feel lyk learn guitar.told my mum last yr det i wan to learn it,she say after pmr only can.den after det i forget bout dis thing ady.den when joe told me he start to learn guitar ady n told me his dream,i ask him let me to write his song lyrics if his dream come true lol.bt nw,i reali feel lyk learn it.imagine u hav a guitar when ur all alone,dets a erm great console?gotta tell my mum abt it.bt i think shud 1 more dissapointed case.final exam is coming soon,den after final exam i feel lyk do alot of things.dota comp(which we feel lyk participate in it),try to travel alone if i can make it or try to travel wif fren if we able to break e rules of under18 CANNOT book n check in hotel(WTF!),den work if i could get a work which huiyang promise to find.argh..bt alot of ppl nvr go to music sch for guitar lesson bt dey learn it demself from e thing dey get from internet.so i hope if i cant learn it from e music sch i can learn it myself on one day.dreams nvr too late lol.

=)

还是一样的心情

2008-09-18T02:31:00.004-07:00

对于成长，我有太多的遗憾和无奈。或许，寂寞是很绝对的，在无法意识的自我体现中，一直蚕食着生命的阳光。又或者说，我其实不应感慨的，个人的感伤在世事中只是小片乌云。但是往回看，抓不住的事物太多，想要的生活在梦里才能实现。

所以，请给我感伤的自由，我或许会在夜里，为生命掬一把心碎，或许会在阳光里，找到自己的不存在。然后或许，一切原来都不重要，那只是呢喃的低语，是你不会去关心的破碎，又或是你睥睨低视的弱者。然后的然后，从前或许都会只是天空里的一片缺失。

又或许，这个夜里或许会有一片彩虹，在那个夕阳的林子里。还是依然无语的沉默脸庞?

还是还是，这些都只是没有意义的独白？

=)?

2008-09-18T02:31:00.000-07:00

im down.fucking down.

如果你给我一片天，
我能许你什么？
土地的实，
还是忧愁的轻飘？

=) ? =( ?

bla

2008-09-13T06:51:00.000-07:00

so many days nvr write blog ady.okay im lazy n i think no ppl visit my blog.so lol.bro wedding jus passed.lol its nice,wif bro funny speech.den days jus pass as usual,sch slp game movie.exam coming ady,jus study a littleeeeeeee bit only..gonna die ady.okay so i wont tell my mum i gt exam n i hope she wont discover det i gt exam bt i think mostly she will kno den she will scold me den i will die den i will..n i think i reali hav to learn hw 2 organize n manage a blog well.my blog jus simply too dull n erm boring.lol gt alot things feel lyk write out bt jus don kno hw 2 write out.so erm it takes time? =)

Finally

2008-09-04T03:00:00.000-07:00

okay finally i can deal wif e blog.v pekcek la keep on set set set den end up wrong thing =.= so today sch is kinda okay.u kno wad,my class is going to chg e add maths teacher(prosably).den today did silly things n crake lame joke wif julian all e time(u pull my tie i pull ur xxxx!!).bro wedding coming soon!ow seriously im looking for it.argh im finding more 80's classic hits so i'll stop here.lol. =)

P.S:n i do not smoke okay.lol.

2008-09-03T05:28:00.001-07:00

Hi so here is my blog after wanted to create it since last last year wif joe.den nw he created a wretch blog bt i stil staring at my computer or plying games instead of do a blog.n my first post ever?stil gt alot thing haven set le..gotta learn more of e blog..n today sch is boring n sky is crying n im tiring..so dets all..

P.S:n dis pic is nice. =)

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